happiness, return to me right this second!
been feeling kind of empty lately. well i kind of always feel empty but,
this time, its like extra empty.
few of my friends told me i always have this sad look
like theres something bothering me inside, dont know what exactly
but yeah i have that sad look!!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm do i?
anyways, i just kind of feel like there's something missing in me these days.
like u can see im kind of cheerful on the outside but...
inside is like totally the other way round.
what do u call that?
oh and even when there are people or good friends around me,
i still feel lonely (and empty maybe).
and i get super sensitive lately. like i could easily cry over very little stuffs.
i get sad seeing my dad back from work, seeing him tired.
i feel down before i go to bed, feel gloomy waking up in the morning.
cried my eyeballs out watching The Karate Kid and The Last Song too.
dont know if i should put the blame on pms or exams.
or maybe a little bit of both and a part of me being me hahaha
(told u im a drama queen) (or maybe an emotional drama queen)
but anyways, i started listening to Yasmin Mogahed almost every night before i go to bed.
and there was a talk, "Getting Closer to God" where she mentioned about loneliness.
and that there is an ayah in the Al-Quran about God saying that He is closer to us than our jugular veins.
a lesson that i got from her was that,
we all should never give up no matter how hard life gets. yes, we do feel lonely sometimes. but that is because we never really put God as the first we run to every time we encounter problems.
we never really depend 100% on God. instead, we depend on people.
we get emotionally attached to people. we have expectations, we want people to do good to us in return of what we did for them.
but that is totally normal, we all do that cause we are all humans.
and that is why God reminds us in the Holy Al-Quran that
it is never too late to return to Him,
that He is always very close to us,
that He is always there and He is the only one who has never left and will never leave.
so that is what i tell myself everyday as well. emotions are normal!!! but overload of depressing emotions is not. and that is the reason why we depend fully on God and not on anybody else.
and btw, finals is in 3 days.....freaking out a little.
but gotta go thru some rough roads before i get to the best part!
soooooo, lets do this!
this time, its like extra empty.
few of my friends told me i always have this sad look
like theres something bothering me inside, dont know what exactly
but yeah i have that sad look!!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm do i?
anyways, i just kind of feel like there's something missing in me these days.
like u can see im kind of cheerful on the outside but...
inside is like totally the other way round.
what do u call that?
oh and even when there are people or good friends around me,
i still feel lonely (and empty maybe).
and i get super sensitive lately. like i could easily cry over very little stuffs.
i get sad seeing my dad back from work, seeing him tired.
i feel down before i go to bed, feel gloomy waking up in the morning.
cried my eyeballs out watching The Karate Kid and The Last Song too.
dont know if i should put the blame on pms or exams.
or maybe a little bit of both and a part of me being me hahaha
(told u im a drama queen) (or maybe an emotional drama queen)
but anyways, i started listening to Yasmin Mogahed almost every night before i go to bed.
and there was a talk, "Getting Closer to God" where she mentioned about loneliness.
and that there is an ayah in the Al-Quran about God saying that He is closer to us than our jugular veins.
a lesson that i got from her was that,
we all should never give up no matter how hard life gets. yes, we do feel lonely sometimes. but that is because we never really put God as the first we run to every time we encounter problems.
we never really depend 100% on God. instead, we depend on people.
we get emotionally attached to people. we have expectations, we want people to do good to us in return of what we did for them.
but that is totally normal, we all do that cause we are all humans.
and that is why God reminds us in the Holy Al-Quran that
it is never too late to return to Him,
that He is always very close to us,
that He is always there and He is the only one who has never left and will never leave.
so that is what i tell myself everyday as well. emotions are normal!!! but overload of depressing emotions is not. and that is the reason why we depend fully on God and not on anybody else.
and btw, finals is in 3 days.....freaking out a little.
but gotta go thru some rough roads before i get to the best part!
soooooo, lets do this!
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